A few days ago my husband and I celebrated our 6th wedding anniversary. Yay us! It was more than a celebration, but a reminder of God’s grace and how much can change in one short year.
Our 5th wedding anniversary was plagued with a dark cloud. See, last year I was deep on the job hunt. A week or so before our anniversary I had interviewed for a position that I thought went well, but apparently they organization didn’t. I got the decline email the morning of our anniversary. The email just put a damper on the entire day. It was the straw that broke the camel’s back; my breaking point. After applying to a million jobs (slight exaggeration, but not really), and nothing happening, I became discouraged and began to question every life decision I had made. My thoughts started to betray me. It became difficult to see how God was loving and providing for me through that time. Because I couldn’t recognize the good things happening around me, I started to question God. Needless to say, our anniversary was a bit sad.
But taking this time to reflect on last year reminded me of how great God is. How with faith you can stand in the same place and have a different perspective. There is something amazing about faith that allows us to face situations with hope and not despair. Nothing but everything has changed in the past year. I didn’t find a job. I didn’t come into a huge sum of money. But I did get aligned with my values. I did strengthen my relationship with God. And those two things helped me to stop hinging my happiness on others. God’s word helped me to see that I’m a complete, whole and wonderful person that can do great things. Figuring out what I valued allowed me to see that I was chasing opportunities that didn’t align with the life I wanted to create for myself and my family. Because of those two things, I was able to fully enjoy time with my husband and my mind was not wrecked with thoughts of worry or worthlessness.
A few weeks ago I was sitting at a red light and became teary-eyed and started to say thank God. I was overcome with gratitude. I am soooooo thankful for the new song I have in my heart. I am so thankful for the feeling of hope. I am thankful for joy. Just last year I was feeling forgotten. But right now I am planting seeds with the expectancy of a harvest. Right now I can FULLY see God working in my life. It’s truly amazing what can happen in a year’s time. I am so excited to see what next year can bring. While I am still making my way out of the valley, I am hopeful because truly believe that God will honor my work. It is hope that allows me stand in essentially the same place but with a new attitude.
If you find yourself in a space of transition, there are 3 things I recommend you to do.
Figure Out What You Value
In my case, I was praying and pleading to God for something I did not want. I was angry at him for not answering prayers I didn’t even want to be answered. I could have saved myself a whole heap of disappointment if I just sat down and thought about what I truly wanted and stepped into that life. So figure out what you value and what you want out of life, then get busy creating the life you want.
Get Closer to God
Now is not the time to back away from God.Don’t let your thoughts betray you. Stand on God’s promises and his words. All the negative thoughts, fear, and worry are lies and not of God. Find you a scripture and stand on it. Surround yourself with truth.
Working and waiting can happen at the same time. God gave you this space and time for a reason, so take care of it and use it purposefully.
Thanks for reading.
Remember, You got this, and God’s got you.!